Monday, December 14, 2009

Why i must still frusted ??

hah ! shit bah , its already 3 month eskandar !!!! fuck off eskandar !!! haih . everyday i hurt , sad , crying , knk aku maseh mengharap ngan nya , hurmm , i read her blog , i happy coz she happy even deep inside my heart its is a lie that i happy , its more happy if me eskandar inside her heart , can hear her voice , can feel the love from her tapi aku xdapat smua ya even once . haih , nasib rtok ada juak orang teman ku chat pat juak plh ku happy but there can cure the pain inside my heart . hurm . aku pun xtauk dari cney mok cta . okea . BISMILLAHHIRAHMANNIRAHIM . hurm . aku bok lkak baca blog nya , she so happy , aku sangat tertekan , preasure so much , tp bla tanga gamba mek 2 dlok ( aek mata dah ngalir ) mcm da power datang nok plh aku mkin sabar , tp aek mata ku ttap juak kluar walau gney2 pun aku tahan , khidupan mek 2 nktok jaoh berbeza , nya happy aku xpnah rasa happy sjak nya pergi , seems that i so weak but i try to be strong , but still xdapat . she like my personal drugs for me hmm , aku always mok nya and always lie to myself that she love me and she cant forget me hehe bodoh kan aku , mengharap harapan nok palsu , smpy aku stiap hari tdo akhr just for her 1 mesej , tp mayb it comes once a month and i wait 30 days for a month , tp aku x kesah pun even aku sakit or what coz i know she will cure it hehe . wait 2 hour just for 6 minit cakap dgn nya pun aku dah syuko , hehe . bila ku baca blog nya ku tangga she still hoping for that guys , mayb that guy lbh bgs dari aku smpy nya xpat lupak smpy aku nok dah lamak dgn nya pun nya pat lupak cmya jak , i dont know how my heart feel , sometimes pk2 mayb i crazy , im crazy of u . macam xda umpuan lain jak , eskandar hensem bah . yah , i know bnyk gk umpuan , i already try , aku nang xpat bgk cdak kasih sayang and love even skit pun , ksian cdak , tp apa ku blh buat ya kuasa tuhan , dlm hati aku cukup untk sorang jak , yah , thats u siti nurhayati . sometimes if aku tlalu rndu ngan nya , honestly aku akan tanga pic nya , pic mek 2 , ckp ngan gamba mek 2 sometimes smpy tertdo ngan gamba , msti tak orang tetak kan hehe , tp aku x kesah , aku just crita tntang hidup ku jak . apa2 pun ku just dapat berdoa jak , hope sapa nok baca tok doakan aku juak mun x keberatan , doa ku kuat , mkin tabah hadapi hdup tok . okea la , esk sambong gik :')
bye bye . ily the one , hope tbukak pntu ati amin :')

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